The woes of Pee Pee

OK, so we have been working on potty training Koleton since before Christmas. Let me tell you that really tries a person's patience. First he would only go pee on the toilet. Then he would do both about half on the toilet and half in his undies. Let me tell you, You MUST have a strong stomach as a mom or dad even unless you want to buy stock in the baby undies department. YUCK!!!

Well, now he is almost completely potty trained. We still put a pull up on him at night as he does have the occasional wet nights. This is GREAT but he is a BIG BOY now and insists on doing it all by himself. He won't just sit on the toilet he must stand now. He has to do it like Hunter. Hunter is the 4 year old that I watch. So now EVERYTIME I go in to use the bathroom I must clean up a pee puddle first. It is all around the toilet, on the floor, EVERYWHERE!!!!

SO once again, I say "I WANT A GIRL!!!!"

The life of a Construction Worker

So...You may or may not know that Dan used to work for a Custom Body Shop in town. It will remain nameless in order to protect the GUILTY! Anyway, he was the shop foreman and he LOVED what he did. Well, last September things went crazy and the owner decided to make some "changes" because the shop wasn't doing so hot. The real reason it wasn't doing great is because the owner was never there and he spent more money than the shop was making. So, Dan had to find new employment.

Back to construction here we come. Now, don't get me wrong. It is a good living and Dan likes doing construction also. He really likes to have something to show after all of his hard work. He is making more money doing construction than he was at the body shop. There is a LOT less drama too.

However, I HATE CONSTRUCTION!!! When spring/summer comes he is always out of town. WAHHAHHAH!!! The boys and I got spoiled I guess from him being home working most of the winter. But today is the day he left for the next out of town job. I seriously feel like a single mom when he is gone. He won't be back until Thurday night. Then when he gets home he has so much stuff to do.

He has a bug to work on for a guy and has freinds to help out. I don't mind this AT ALL as our friends have helped us out SO MUCH in the last few months. Oh well, at least I can watch him sleep on Thursday :)

So thats my bitch of the week. I promise I'll start blogging about happier things! I'm ready for the week now though. Bring it on.

Rachaell, you better come ready to sweat 'cause I'm ready to kick some serious ass today!

A little vent

Oh my gosh. Today has been a day. I have 5 kids under my care. At 4:30 I have to leave to go work at the Day Care in Adcope. I have to drop McClain off with my dad first though because he is sick. Poor baby. He just doesn't feel good and he pukes every once in awhile.

So after a week of non-stop kids, it looks like I'll have a weekend full of kids too. Dan found a pole building that he can have as long as he gets it torn down and gone by the weekend. Its good news, it will save us a LOT of money when we start building our shop but I won't be seeing him at all this weekend. Then...he is working out of town next week! ARE YOU SERIOUS! I hate out of town jobs. I'll be a single mom more than I already am.

Oh well, thats life :)

I feel down.

I am going through a trying time in my life right now. I feel lost and I don't know what to do. Have you ever felt like something is missing in your life? I do. I feel selfish even saying that. I have more than most women will ever have.

I have 2 beautiful boys. I have an awesome, hardworking husband. My hubby works his ass off so I can stay home and raise our boys. I have a roof over my head and shoes on my feet. What more do I need, right. I have everything that should make me happy. I have everything that I EVER wanted to have in my life.

So why do I feel like this. I just feel so selfish. I am really struggling right now. Am I falling into depression. Lets face it. Depression runs in my family. I don't know if it is genetic or not but I've had my family tell me it is. My Dad committed suicide when I was 14 for crying out loud. Lately, I've been struggling with that more too. Its been almost 11 years and I have accepted it for a long time now.

Can I honestly say I don't know what I want. No. I know what I want. I've tried to get it but nothing ever changes. I've talked until I'm blue in the face and nothing ever changes. I guess I just shouldn't waste my breath on it anymore. I'll just get over myself and be happy with the wonderful life that I have.

Well, I thought this would make me feel better but it really hasn't. Sorry for the pitty party :(

This week has been a busy one for me. I've been working at the Chiro's office and babysitting. This has all made me realize I need to simplify and organize. I read somewhere about making dinner menus at least a week in advance. So, I did that. I hate trying to figure out what to make at dinner time. Do we have everything that is needed? I hate finding out I'm missing an ingredient when I 'm right in the middle of cooking. So, I made my menu and at the same time made my grocery list for next week. I think this will be soooo much easier. Why didn't I do this a LONG time ago? Oh well.

Next week I will be babysitting 2 boys full time. This will take some getting used to. I won't be able to go run errands during the week anymore. But that is a good thing. The more I stay at home the less money I spend and the more money I will be making. This is a VERY good thing.

It sounds like Dan will be going out of town again in the next week or so. That TOTALLY sucks! The boys and I have enjoyed him being home so much. I'm not looking forward to the whole transition and the boys missing their daddy. It really does affect their behavior. They get sick of seeing my face all the time. I can't say that I blame them. We cannot open a business soon enough. But Dan is saying he doesn't see it happening until 3-5 years from now. We'll be working on things and will do it as soon as possible. It is scary to think about though when the economy is falling. Not a great time to start a business. But we'll see.

Well, my friends...Until next time...